Fifteen Forty-TwoFriday, April 19, 2013
That's how long it took me to (mostly) run a mile last night.
I say mostly, because I did have to take a few walking breaks, but I did actually run (albeit at times slowly) for 12 minutes of that 15:42.
Now this might not seem like a huge deal to some people, but to me, it's pretty freaking big.
If you would have told any of my gym teachers in school that I ran most of a mile (and did it in under twenty minutes), they probably would have laughed in your face (well except Mr. Bates -- man, he was HOT). I have never really been particularly athletic. I took dance as a toddler (I wanted to continue, but unfortunately that didn't happen), did volleyball and cheerleading in later elementary, and played softball and baseball for several years, but I'm just not an athletic person. My parents aren't particularly athletic (though they are both amazing artists, but I didn't inherit those genes either), and I've been at least a little overweight for pretty much as long as I can remember, but though I loved playing tag and riding my bike, I always preferred intellectual pursuits over athletics (like the summer I read the dictionary up through "E").
When the Presidential Fitness Test would come around, the only thing I ever did well was the sit and reach (because despite the fact that I'm a BIG girl, I've always been pretty flexible). Shuttle run? Not great, but not the worst. Sit-ups? Terrible. Pull-ups? Absolutely abysmal; I've never been able to do one. And when it came to the mile, I would run in short spurts, but walk almost the entire thing (I was never last though -- there was always someone slower, even when I was pulling in 22+ minute miles). So the fact that I not only ran almost all of it, but did it in 15:42? That makes me feel proud of myself.
For so long, I've wanted to be a runner. I just didn't think I really could. I mean, I weigh almost 300 pounds, I've spent my entire life trying to avoid running, and I was kind of too terrified to really try.
But now, I feel empowered. I know if I keep at it, I'll be running like I've been dreaming of. And though I'm not very fast, and I didn't run the whole mile, what I accomplished last night makes me feel like I've earned the title of runner.
I am a runner.
I never thought I'd be able to say it, but I'm really looking forward to being able to continue proving that it's true :)