When I Grow Up, I Wanna Be FamousWednesday, May 15, 2013
Since this is obviously in your head now. You're welcome.
When I was little, that was my main goal in life. Mostly, I wanted to be an actress (I had it all planned out -- I'd act on both film and stage, then win a Tony for portraying Dorothy in a stage adaptation of The Wizard of Oz), but more than anything, I wanted to be famous. And I didn't care how it happened, provided that it was a good kind of famous (you know, like Marie Curie famous, not Monica Lewinsky famous).
As I got older, the less I cared about being famous. I figured I'd never be able to cut it as an actress, because I just didn't look the part. I turned my eyes toward more practical career paths and left my lust for fame behind me. It was years before the thought of being famous ever crossed my mind again.
It was after I started blogging.
If you blog or read blogs (heck, even if you don't), you know there are some HUGE bloggers out there. Bloggers that get book deals, national morning show appearances, and use their blog as their main source of income. They've achieved a newer kind of fame -- being blog famous. There are other, less successful blog famous blogs of course; they don't have a book deal, but a lot of bloggers know who they are, and they're raking in the benjamins.
I didn't realize this when I first started blogging. But the more I started branching out and reading other blogs, the more I became aware of what it meant to be blog famous. And the more it started to sound appealing. For awhile, I thought I might try to become blog famous.
I started tying to model my blog's appearance after more successful blogs that I admired. I tried forcing myself into a niche, because I was told it would help make my blog more successful (and I absolutely loathed it, and I'm really glad I dropped it like it was hot). I spent hours reading articles I had Googled about how to make my blog more successful. I even joined one of those humongous giveaways where I didn't have to pay anything and just sent in social media links (a move that now makes me feel like a bit of a sell out). And yeah, my blog grew (and my social media followers grew quite a bit), but not by much.
I read a few other blogs similar in size to mine, and a few of them seemed to explode overnight. It seemed like this had happened because they sucked up to bigger bloggers, or paid a lot of money for ad space on a major blog. It's like a group of them just decided to stick their heads up each others butts. And it's working for them.
But that's not something I'm interested in doing.
If I become blog famous someday, awesome. But if it happens, it's not going to be because I paid for it (whether with money, flattery, bribery, or integrity). It's going to be because people genuinely like what I have to say. But being blog famous? It's not important. And it's not something I'm willing to compromise myself for anymore.
Like me? Awesome.
Like me? Awesome.
Either way, I'm okay.
I have my own place to discuss my thoughts.
I have my integrity.
And I have my Psych gifs :)